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Where Did I Go Wrong
02:02
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I woke up in a daze from the late night worry
Would it be the same or was it all a joke
Now everyone is crazed and the truth's alarming
Fighting back the tears as I spoke
Where did I go?
Where did I go wrong?
I walk inside a haze of confusion lately
Will I be okay, will I find myself?
Now I feel ashamed about getting angry
Should I play the hand that I was dealt?
Where did I go?
Where did I go wrong?
Take the past for what it's worth
And the present, how absurb
But the future we shall see
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Commitment
04:09
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Sometimes I doubt my commitment to my emotions
But I'm not giving them up
Even with my intentions and my apprehensions
You're the one that I want
Next to me while I'm falling asleep and I love you, I think
Nobody wants nobody home
Nobody wants to be alone
I want somebody to sing me to sleep
Will it be you, or me?
Sometimes I doubt my commitment to my emotions
But they won't go away
Even with my digressions and my repression
You're the one that I want
By my side when I'm tired and I love you, I think
Nobody wants nobody home
Nobody wants to be alone
I want somebody to sing me to sleep
Will it be you, or me?
Sometimes I doubt my commitment to my emotions
But I should listen to them
Even with analyzation, it's my explanations
You're the one that I want in my head when I'm going to bed and I love you, I think
Nobody wants nobody home
Nobody wants to be alone
I want somebody to sing me to sleep
Will it be you, or me?
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3. |
Words In Sand
03:16
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Destiny was focused, writing in the sand
Destiny was lying by the lifeguard stand
I looked at what she'd written and understood why
She looked up at the sky
Destiny wrote single words, soaked in regret
Soon I responded don't lose hope yet
Every word has meaning, look through the names
There's everything to gain
Destiny was calling don't worry about fate
It's not too late, it's not too late
Have all these restrictions, look to escape
It's not too late, it's not too late
Looking for the answers, sometimes have to wait
It's not too late, it's not too late
The words in sand, the crashing of waves
It's not too late, it's not too late
Destiny was talking talking through the sane
I tried so hard to understand
Once they were written, they were pushed away
Forever erased
Destiny was calling don't worry about fate
It's not too late, it's not too late
Have all these restrictions, look to escape
It's not too late, it's not too late
Looking for the answers, sometimes have to wait
It's not too late, it's not too late
The words in sand, the crashing of waves
It's not too late, it's not too late
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4. |
For
05:44
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Sometimes it hurts so bad to be with someone who makes you sad and I don't want that to happen to me
Sometimes it just happens, when you're with her she don't demand, I feel I want her to depend on me
Time to remind her that I'm still here and the things we fear will vanish
Time to remind her not to get scared and go somewhere and panic
The things I'll say when it comes Monday will clear the grey surrounding
The things we'll do after we get through my talk with you is astounding
Not to say that I just want you for
Not to say that I will choose for
Not to say what I'm willing to lose for
Not to say what I won't do for you
Cause everything I do, I do it all for you this way
All I need to do is find the words to say
Sometimes I just don't know about the way I let my feelings show
I just want someone to grow old with me
Sometimes I think it's true and I know exactly what to do
But when the time comes the words can't come out of me
Time to remind myself of what to do discreetly
Time to remind myself what will ensue when committing to you completely
The things I'll say when it comes Monday will evaporate all tear drops
If I can say what I mean to say without getting stuck
Not to say that I just want you for
Not to say that I will choose for
Not to say what I'm willing to lose for
Not to say what I won't do for you
Since everything I do, I do it all for you this way
All I need to do is find the words to say
Everything I do, I do it all for you this way
All I need to do is find the words to say
I want to be with you past the break of dawn
I want to be with you in the early morn
I want to be with you come high noon
I want to be with you in the afternoon
I want to be with you til evening comes
I want to be with you til the setting of the sun
All the time in the day
All the space in the night
From when I wake up
Til I turn out the light
You're the song in my head
You're the socks on my feet
You're the one that I need
Now that I am complete
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5. |
Other Plans
02:13
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I like to sleep in on the weekends
It makes up for waking up at seven AM
But when the phone pings at eight fifteen, I can't fall asleep again
Sometimes life has other plans
Sometimes life has other plans
Friday night I met a girl named Mary Ellen
She rents a place at a good rate in Brooklyn
But will I think of Mary Ellen, when I sing about Maryann
Sometimes life has other plans
Sometimes life has other plans
I know a girl who lives at home, so she can go traveling
She showed me pictures of her in a far off land
We're almost at the point where we can hold hands
Sometimes she has other plans
Sometimes she has other plans
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6. |
Like a Brother
02:36
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On the train ride home we were alone
We talked for a bit then slept on it
We were so close I thought we could make it
I knew the response I just couldn't take it
Cause I'm everybody's friend and nobody's lover
Every girl I know treats me like a brother
Which is sad, I get low, but not that kind
I take too much time, in falling in love
Almost everyday we spend this way
We've been through stuff and it's been tough
We had just grieved so I knew it
We were too close and now we're through it
Cause I'm everybody's friend and nobody's lover
Every girl I know treats me like a brother
Which is sad, cause I get low, but not that kind
I take too much time, in falling in love
I need to get to know you
Before we decide what to do
By the time I feel attraction, there's different interactions
In spending days together, I already know whether
Or not, you'd like to give it a show
That's the price I pay, for living this way
Cause I'm everybody's friend and nobody's lover
Every girl I know treats me like a brother
Which is sad, cause I get low, but not that kind
I take too much time, in falling in love, love, love...
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7. |
What We Become
03:25
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Everything is fine today
I can finally say
I'm happy, I'm happy
I know I can't complain
I;m feeling incomplete
Leave it alone and let repeat
I'm happy, I'm happy
Maybe then someday I'll meet
You, you
We'll have fun at half past one
You'll come through, that's what you'll do
And then from what we become
We'll do, what we do, when I'm with you
I can't stand to be alone
Try to make it one my own
I'm waiting, I'm waiting
Need the number to phone
You, you
We'll have fun at half past one
You'll come through, that's what you'll do
And then from what we become
We'll do, what we do, when I'm with you
It's alright I guess
I still can't get upset
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8. |
Insomnia
02:16
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I haven't been sleeping well, there's a lot on my mind
But if anyone asks me, I'll tell them I'm just fine
Cause there's bills to pay and grass to cut and a fence that just fell down
And no one's here to help me out cause they're all out of town
I've been thinking of you and I don't know what to do
I try to explain it, but I know I can't contain it
I toss and turn almost every night, there's things filling up my head
But rather than just let them know, I give a smile instead
Cause there's bills to pay and grass to cut and a fence that just fell down
And no one's here to help me out cause they're all out of town
I've been thinking of you and I don't know what to do
I try to explain it, but I know I can't contain it
I've been thinking of you and I don't know what to do
I try to explain it, but I know I can't contain it
Oh oh no
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9. |
So Alone
03:04
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Sometimes you just have to know
All good things come to a close
It is time to end the show
And hopefully we'll grow
As souls
Sometimes it hurts to know
Sometimes it's the worst to know
The feelings that you disclose
Are the feelings that we hold as souls
All this time I didn't know
All this time I was unwhole
The phrases that I chose
Made the chapters unfold
So cold
All this time I've been alone
All this time I've lost my home
Now my heart has turned to stone
I'm only flesh and bone
So alone
And you're not coming back to me
And you're not coming back to me
And you're not coming back to me
No you're not coming back to me
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10. |
I Didn't Know What To Do
02:31
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I'm sorry for the end of me and you
I didn't mean to do no harm
But what else was I left to do
You wanted her alone
I didn't know what to do
I didn't know what to do with you
I'm sorry for the way I shielded you
I don't know how to change your words
I can tell when you withdrew
You were telling me that you hurt
I didn't know what to do
I didn't know what to do with you
Now you're falling out of place
There's something in the way
And all I want to say is
It's okay, it's okay
I didn't know what to do
I didn't know what to do with you
Now you're falling out of place
There's something in the way
And all I want to say is
It's okay
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11. |
Choose yer own
04:55
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I will write one song a day until I find out what I have to say
I feel as if I have lost my voice
I feel as if I have no choice
I'm at the point where I can't sleep in
The alarm goes off on the weekendsI stay woken up when you go to bed
There's nothing to say, nothing in my head
I'll choose to write, I'll choose to rhyme
I'll choose to go to bed at a reasonable time
I'll choose my words, I'll choose the way
That I say these words that I write on the page
I will choose how I spend my time
I'm not on my phone not a slive to the lines
That are on a screen that are swiping words
That can fill the net into the ether
I'll sing a song o toss into a net
I will catch the hook, drop one better yet
I will let this go, I will seize the day
I will choose to grow, toss that fish away
I'll choose to write, I'll choose to rhyme
I'll choose to go to bed at a reasonable time
I'll choose my words, I'll choose the way
That I say these words that I write on the page
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I wish I could write a song just for you,
But I don't know you well enough yet
So any "I love you's" or "you know it's true's"
Would seem clingy or make you upset
So I'll let you know in a week or so, when I've made up my mind on you
But if that's what I'll do then I'll have to see you again
My casual acquaintance friend
When I went to your house to pick you up,
Your mom saw me and started to smile
There's that nice Jewish Boy she's been dying for you to meet,
What a charming handsome guy
So I'll let her know in a week or so, when I've made up my mind on you
But if that's what I'll do then I'll have to see you again
My casual acquaintance friend
I'm so glad you could come tonight even if you brought your crazy aunt
Since it's better than if you only brought your sister, so now she can chill with your aunt
So I'll let them know in a week or so, when I've made up my mind on you
But if that's what I'll do then I'll have to see you again
My casual acquaintance friend
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13. |
Chatterbox
04:16
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I knew when I met you, you had some great stories to tell
But I wanted to charm you so I thought I had some as well
Now I'm all used up, and it seems like you've had enough
I say, say, say, what I think you want me to
But I won't shut up, so I think we're almost through
Why am I such a chatterbox, I only had to listen
Why am I such a misanthrope, if I knew what I was missing
You wouldn't be hiding away, checked out at the end of the day
If I weren't such a chatterbox, you'd tell me and I'd listen
I knew when I told you, you have great information
I only know one thing but I'm tuned into that station
At times I got glimpses, but it feels like impositions
I say, say, say, what I think you want me to
But I won't shut up, so I think we're almost through
Why am I such a chatterbox, I only had to listen
Why am I such a misanthrope, if I knew what I was missing
You wouldn't be hiding away, checked out at the end of the day
If I weren't such a chatterbox, you'd tell me and I'd listen
I could have know everything but the punishment fits the crime
It takes one to talk, and two to talk at the same time
But I couldn't hear, so now you're nowhere near
I say, say, say, what I think you want me to
But I won't shut up, so I think we're almost through
Why am I such a chatterbox, I only had to listen
Why am I such a misanthrope, if I knew what I was missing
You wouldn't be hiding away, checked out at the end of the day
If I weren't such a chatterbox, you'd tell me and I'd listen
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14. |
Cascade
03:41
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I know why you feel like a failure
All the things are so hard to handle
One rejection's so unmanageable
So it Cascades
You've failed once, you should try again
You've got support from all of your friends
I know you need outside validations
Let it Cascade
Put it out there at least take the shot
You can't score if you just pass it off
Cause when you score I know you will get hot
And Cascade
Don't feel sad from one quick no
Like Frozen said it's time to let it go
You've done the work, it's time to show
It's a snowball rolling
Down the Cascade
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15. |
Care and Consideration
03:16
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Care and consideration are given
Expenses paid for city living
Couple things happen for reasons
Each new change comes from decisions
I promised you I'd give you shelter from elements
You promised me to cook and bake so I am well fed
I promised to support you in your quest for betterment
You promised to leave a space where I can rest my head
Care and consideration are given
Expenses paid for city living
Couple things happen for reasons
Each new change comes from decisions
I promised to keep you honest and on a steady path
You promised me we'd mix it up become more adventurous
I promised you I'd drive you places, I'd even pay for gas
You promised me to be my friend, cause we were meant for us
Care and consideration are given
Expenses paid for city living
Couple things happen for reasons
Each new change comes from decisions
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16. |
Cross Country Companions
04:05
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We were cross country companions, headed north on 101
At the end of traveling, yet a new trip just begun
Started out on August first, summer of eleven
Skipping town from old New York haunts to start again
Headed through Jersey to see my old stomping grounds
Made our way to Pittsburgh, head a flat in Youngstown
Caught a concert in Chicago, had a Madison grilled cheese
Stayed with friends in Minneapolis, one of the Twin Cities
Saw the straw poll fair in Iowa, and the Kool Aid in Hastings
Camped out in the Rockies, Utah south of Great Salt Lake
Spent too much time in Vegas, although only for two days
Crossed Death Valley to San Diego to see my good friend Jake
Played a show, drove to LA, saw Russell Brand and Ellen Page
Drove winding roads to San Francisco, sand Full House and skipped town
Destination Seattle, where we'd later settle down
I would stay, but you'd fly away, still I'm glad you've stuck around.
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There's a cadence in the way that you wake in the morn
There's a cadence in the way that you grumble coffee's on
There's a cadence in the way that you start things at dawn
There's a cadence in the way that you wake then you're gone
There's a cadence in the way that you work way too hard
There's a cadence in the way that you finish what you start
There's a cadence in the way that you write a new part
There's a cadence in the way that you walk arm in arm
Comma, Ampersand, Exclamation Point
Comma, Ampersand, Exclamation Point
If you break when I bend then what's the point?
Comma, Ampersand, Exclamation Point
There's a cadence in the way that you get dressed for bed
There's a cadence in the way that you stay in my head
There's a cadence in the way that you choose and re-choose instead
There's a cadence in the way that you keep so well read
Comma, Ampersand, Exclamation Point
Comma, Ampersand, Exclamation Point
If you break when I bend then what's the point?
Comma, Ampersand, Exclamation Point
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18. |
Calm before the storm
03:52
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We thought not of rebuilding, only of settled down
We thought about conflict free retirement, IRAs and bank accounts
We put thirty years on the mortgage, joined the board of the town
A wave in the sand, repaved the land, and changed the ground
It was too quiet it was too worn
It was the calm before the storm
A sense of pressure a rip has torn
It was the calm before the storm
The kids have grown up, moved up and away
Figured out their own paths, they scrimp and save
Youngest still in school for a scholarly way
Oldest working hard for the corporate pay
It was too quiet it was too worn
It was the calm before the storm
A sense of pressure a rip has torn
It was the calm before the storm
We washed up, washed out, evacuate the house
Torn up, torn out, had it all figured out
It was too quiet it was too worn
It was the calm before the storm
A sense of pressure a rip has torn
It was the calm before the storm
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19. |
Marching in like a man
04:06
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Marching in like a lion, back out like a lamb
Telling the truth like I'm lying, roundabout way that I am
I'll boast through my rhyming, quiet up like a clam
I'm barely even trying, earnest as a man
I'm still here deciding to act on my plan
Commit to more hiding, withhold from your scam
I've just started writing, pandemic be damned
This monthly website-ing, post songs on Bandcamp
A partner in crime is a mere slight of hand
A ship near capsizing, a player in a band
An atom for ion, a scientists land
A chemical concoction, a mere grain of sand
I'm wondering why and am I getting off brand
A generic expiring, a dented soup can
A print work for hiring, an out of work artisan
A near miss unmasking, an obtuse human
Marching in like a lion, back out like a lamb
Telling the truth like I'm lying, roundabout way that I am
I'll boast through my rhyming, quiet up like a clam
I'm barely even trying, earnest as a man
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20. |
Pete, & Re: Pete
03:59
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Sometimes being useless, is the most useful thing to do
We all go through with it, then I suppose we're all through
We're interconnected, yet we're also infected
With a passion for motion, a critical notion, I suppose this'll do
Sometimes uselessness, is vulnerability
That's one thing you have missed, between you and me
There's a helplessness when it seems out of reach
We're a lot alike, I think you would agree, don't you agree?
I wake up late night thinking too long, can't turn it off
Was it the neighbor smoking up, or things out of control
I don't think I'm paranoid, but it sounds that way to you
I cannot explain myself, I'm being misconstrued, not to be rude, (redo)
Pete and Repeat were in a boat, Pete fell out
Pete and Repeat were in a boat, who's left, you shout (and Repeat!)
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My smartphone uploads the sepia tones
That I post on Instagram
While your cat is vomiting rainbows
To keep your Snap streak with the fam
The TikTok club in your high school
Has your best friend, go viral
It sure beats studying for finals
Fifteen seconds is quite a while
It's a long way down the rabbit hole
In the face of the endless scroll
They said I'm the voice of silent movies
And the face of radio
Now your mother is posting on Facebook
And your grandmother is too
When there's baby photos on Snapchat
It's pretty clear that it's through
It's a long way down the rabbit hole
In the face of the endless scroll
They said I'm the voice of silent movies
And the face of radio
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22. |
Middle man
04:16
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He was working for a middle man
He was working in middle management
He was working up the middle class
He was working through the middle life as it passed
Then everything changed, then rearranged, then stayed the same
He was working as a corporate man
He was working in corporate management
He was working up the corporate network path
He was working through the company as heads were slashed
Then everything changed, then rearranged, then stayed the same
He was planning to be a family man
He was planning as a family manager
He was in the middle of a family plan
He was planning through the middle as her news flashed
Then everything changed, then rearranged, then stayed the same
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23. |
That he did
03:31
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Father never said he loved me, but I know that he did
He said his love through actions while he kept his feelings hid
He worked two separate jobs to put me through college
Lifeguard at camp, the deli counter, I was privileged
Daddy did, daddy did, for the love of his kids
That he did, that he did, for the love of his kids
Father never said he loved me, in so many words
He tells us some stories about what he did before
He became a father as if to prove this wasn't it
He wasn't always so suburban, but he wanted kids
Daddy did, daddy did, for the love of his kids
That he did, that he did, for the love of his kids
Father never said he loved me, still he taught me things
He showed me morals, he showed me values and religion
He worked in New York City, teaching English to the kids
Their parents worked just as hard, but they're still hard living.
Daddy did, daddy did, for the love of his kids
That he did, that he did, for the love of his kids
I sure was a privileged son, pass for white suburban
Generational wealth built on father's selfless ones
I may be squandering his handouts, but it's for my grad school debt
A failed bet on independence on business talents
Daddy did, daddy did, for the love of his kids
That he did, that he did, for the love of his kids
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24. |
Sorry Carly, a gift
03:42
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I'm sorry for you Carly, but I don't want you back
When you ended things it was the heart attack
That I needed to hear, like a kick in the pants
I'd like to let you back but I won't stand a chance
I'm sorry for you Carly, but you want me back
When you ended things I was a sad sack of a man, you can't understand what a rough divorce
There was a pandemic on and I was headed to court
I know, you know, it didn't have to be like this
You know, I know that you really want kids
I know, you know we're separately missed
You know, I know that our time was a gift
I'm sorry now Carly, I have written back
I'm still ending things and that's a true slap
In the face, which seems out of place with my character
When you gave up on me, we both became bad actors
I know, you know, it didn't have to be like this
You know, I know that you really want kids
I know, you know we're separately missed
You know, I know that our time was a gift
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25. |
Swiped bags
05:47
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I've got some baggage packed, I'll leave it on the baggage rack
I swear this shit's togethr, I'll unpack that whenever
I'm gonna start a job, I'm pretty tidy. not a slob
I'll love you forever, until we ghost or sever
So I'll swipe, swipe, swipe, late at night
Until I swipe, swipe, right, once we get in a fight
We're through, baby you know it's you, and I don't know if it's true
So we'll swipe, sparks fly, decide, and let them pass me by
I've got some issues out, and that's on me, I've published them in my indie zine
Conflict sells issues, heightens tension in the story
I'm a self published comic artist, a sapling in a big forest
Found a romantic interest, using Pinterest, but this connect's missed,
Miss For Your Information
So I'll swipe, swipe, swipe, late at night
Until I swipe, swipe, right, once we get in a fight
We're through, baby you know it's you, and I don't know if it's true
So we'll swipe, sparks fly, decide, and let them pass me by
I've got some baggage packed, now I'm taking flight
Fly through the air on a trapeze artist weekend overnight
When you're an aerealist, in an airborne pandemic, you wear a mask
You get regularly tested, and you don't get too invested in your circus tent
That's the aerialist artist's lament
So I'll swipe, swipe, swipe, late at night
Until I swipe, swipe, right, once we get in a fight
We're through, baby you know it's you, and I don't know if it's true
So we'll swipe, sparks fly, decide, and let them pass me by
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26. |
Manic pixie
04:27
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A manic pixie dream girl, what comes up must come down
I was absolutely norm core, I heard that term thrown around
I was saying I was straight-edge, like a straight edge razorblade
Like it cuts, to the head, to the skull, to the face
To the bone, to the skin, to the heart, to the rage
I was intellectually eager. with a dream dashed for my fame
I was narcissistically ego, with a downcast view of shame
I was hopelessly romantic, wit ha blind eye towards decay
Like a boat, in the rain, with a hull waterlogged
Let it rot, let it crack, let it sink, let it drain
An agender asexual, unapologetically queer
A homophobic hero casts dispersions in the mirror
A bedridden depressive, a failed business disgrace
The inspiring leader, tech will be your saving grace
Like a bot, like a chache, like a queue, like a snake
In the dash, in the wheels, in the road, like a brake
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27. |
Early (Gabriel's Theme)
01:13
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You might be still in bed, or in your own head, at 5AM
These thoughts could be whirling, or your dream state disturbing, at 5AM
If it's Hip Hop you need, Soul or rapping, there's just one host with the most
Tune to KEXP, 90.3, 5-7 weekday mornings, Early with Gabriel Teodros
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28. |
Hindsight
06:16
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Now that twenty twenty and one is in hindsight
I can see that something else wasn't right
I've been blinded, blindsided, blinded by the light
For the anarchy over fake news,
The disease spreading more than negative attitudes
Still, just mask up, don't be rude
I can combat this world in a song
Make a great escape, it won't take long
Before I find a place where I go, and I long to finally belong
In a crest of a new tidal wave
Paint a symbol on your face, a slave to the minimum wage
A hundred thousand-aire in this city might as well be the same
A part of the out of work technocrats
Too liberal to be libertarian
Self depreciate for you to appreciate my hilarity hiding my natural state
I suppose hindsight's a state of mine
If I look back, it's been a grand old time
Although you can't deny the grief and trauma that's stacking up over all this time
So after a decade long creation drought
Covering songs to let it all out,
The backwater swirled, and the dam burst and it all just flooded out
I was still an ordinary guy
Comfortable as a matter of time
Time has come and gone, we've moved on, ignoring past trauma and trauma bonds
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Matt Jasper Seattle, Washington
Matt Jasper plays guitar, bass guitar, banjo, ukulele, keyboards, and sings. He has written hundreds of songs, recording 5 albums between 2000-2010 and is putting together an album a month in 2021. He has performed extensively throughout Seattle, New York City, New Jersey and Long Island, with experience performing at regional tours throughout the Northeast and West Coast of the US. ... more
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